I don't know if I'm more nervous or more excited. Of course when people ask me, I tell them I'm more excited than nervous, because that's what I'm supposed to be, right? I took a test today that asked me all sorts of fun questions - some I had to think about. My favorite was, "Do you become involved when watching TV soaps..."? I clicked YES but wasn't quite sure until Gloria and I stumbled across a new reality show called _Age of Love_ or something like that. Where 40 year old women and 20 year old women compete for an Australian Pro-Tennis player's heart. Within the first five minutes I was hooked. Gloria told me she thought I clicked the right answer.
It turns out I'm a ENFJ. Extraverted - 33%, Intuitive - 62%, Feeling - 38%, Judging - 22%. I'll find out more about what all this means at Grand Convention in a week. I'm SUPER excited about that - and I think my nerves will settle a bit after I finally meet who I'll be working with. I hope the other consultants are having similar feelings about all this - it's a little overwhelming to think about.
Not that I'm a stranger to travel...it's just different. I'll be at a different place practically every week. Meeting new people every day. That's my job...incredible.
I feel such gratitude towards my family and friends who have continuously (continually?) supported me up to this point, and I know the support won't stop here. I just need them to know how much it helps me feel confident in my capabilities to see them so excited for me.
I have so much to read in preparation for training. As far as preparing to go on the road, well, from what I can tell you can never be fully prepared - a lot of it is improvisation, which to this point I've been pretty good at, let's just hope I get even better at it along the way...
I do worry about my relationship. But I am trying to come to terms with not being able to control what "might" happen. So far this summer, even after being apart for 4 months while I was in France, life has been good. Minus a slight rift in the very beginning that we're trying hard to forget completely...Derek does a great job calling as often as he can, I believe he does - and I do a great job not worrying every minute he's not on the other end of the line. We'll see each other (with both of our families and then some) July 14 in Atlanta, just 3 days before I have to fly back to Atlanta for 3 weeks of training. I just hope that he can begin to understand my job and why I do it as much as I have come to understand what drumcorps means to him. I know I'm coming home October 13 for Homecoming, and I hope that he'll be able to fly out to see me during some of my other weekends off.
We made a promise to each other to never let the other stand in the way of what we individually want to do - it was actually his idea - and a great one. Difficult at times, but very mature and we try to hold each other accountable to it. I'm excited to see where this next year will take us, we've already been through so much together...
The countdown to Convention is one week tomorrow. There is still so much to do. I am excited AND nervous, but right now the need for sleep is over powering both emotions.
